ON TO THE NEXT ONE: I hope it’s worth it…

dharmelolar
3 min readFeb 26, 2021

The first time I mentioned I was going to quit my job, I got different reactions. My mom didn’t talk to me for two days because in her words “ she doesn’t know how I’ll survive and fend for myself”(i could actually hear the worry in her voice), she’s over it now 😊. Some people asked if I had something else to live on or if I had money stashed up somewhere that would last me for months(🥺🥺🥺). My friends cheered me and they were happy about my decisions, they saw the bigger picture and they believed in me. Although I don’t know if there’s a bigger picture but then I choose to be positive.

HOW IT ALL STARTED

I used to work at an IT organization as a customer support representative and I am also a frontend developer. I have been juggling both jobs perfectly until I realized I was becoming very unproductive. Customer support was my full-time job, it’s not really a high-paying job but it was still enough to foot my bills. I really loved my job because I had a very supportive boss and amazing colleagues, but I know it’s time to move on. I couldn’t keep up with the stress any longer and so I QUIT!!!!!!!!!!! Yes, I did!. I’m so proud of myself. I guess I need to write down today’s date as the day I decided to take the bold step.

ANY FEARS OR WORRIES?

Honestly, none of my previous excitement has prepared me for the anxiety and fear I have right now. I was so sure of my decisions at first but right now I’m just so confused. Leaving my job means I won't have any source of income and I still have bills to pay. A very risky decision I must say but is it worth it? Of course, it is. I am scared of what tomorrow holds but then in order to achieve my goals, I have to face my fears(lol… I really sound like a motivational speaker ). I once saw a post on Twitter that says it’s okay to feel you’re wrong even after making the right decisions.

So that’s it, I’m going to face the world with my weapon(my MacBook, ideas, and my friends 😂). I have very amazing friends who are very supportive and encouraging, I’m sure I’ll be fine.

SO WHAT NEXT?

I am going to just allow my life to take its course for now. Do all the things I’ve always wanted to do explore and more importantly, I will work on my skills. In order to become employable, I have to make sure my skills are not subpar. I’ll be learning publicly, taking corrections and criticism so as to enhance my learning.

Finally, I’ll like to say thank you for reading through and that it’s okay to have fears and worries, they are part of our lives. We just have to choose to face them. AND THAT’S ON PERIODT!!!

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